Learning To Love

As Adam shut the door behind me, he locked it and placed the key up high out of my reach. 

‘Why did you do that?’ 

He didn’t respond, he came close to me and backed me up against the wall, his hands grabbed my wrists and pinned them up above me. 

‘Adam, what are you doing? Please don’t.’ 

‘Shhh.’

His lips crushed against mine shutting me up. His hands slid down my arms and then ran underneath my top and straight up to my breasts. I wasn’t ready for this. I moved my hands up and tried to remove his hands from me but he was too strong.

‘Adam, no please. I’m not ready.’

‘You are baby, just take it, you will love it.’ 

His lips moved along my jaw line and to my neck. He started to nibble on my neck which caused me to let out a moan. 

‘Adam.’ I said in a moan.

He lifted me up and carried me upstairs and into his room, he placed me down on the bed and climbed over the top of me. He placed soft kisses all over my neck and cheek while his hands pulled of my top. 

He slipped his hand under my bra and the feel of his bare hands on my breast was over powering. 

He made short work of getting my trousers and pants off. I was now completely naked underneath him. 

He started to unzip his trousers, but I knew I wasn’t ready for this. I thought he would understand and know I wasn’t. It was way too soon, we had only been going out for two weeks. 

‘Adam, no please stop. I don’t want this, not yet.’ 

But he ignored my pleas and then I felt his length against my thigh. I gasped as he ran it along me and then I felt the tip of him enter me. 

As he pushed in more it hurt so badly, it felt like he was tearing my insides apart. Or like a knife cutting through me. 

I tried to move him of me but he grabbed my wrists once again and pinned them down to my sides. He was way to strong for me, it was no use. I was in so much pain I didn’t know what to do but cry out.

‘Adam. You’re hurting me, stop.’ 
 

I suddenly woke up and sat up quickly. My breathing was quick and I was sweating a little. I looked to my side and Adam was still there, we had fell asleep together, still dressed and on top of the blankets. 

It had just been a dream. It wasn’t real, he wasn’t like that in real life. I sat back a bit more relaxed, I turned my face to look at him. His face was perfect, such beauty.

He looked so peaceful while he was asleep, I didn’t want to wake him. But I was starting to get hungry and the smell of bacon downstairs wasn’t helping. 

I went to start to move of the bed but I felt Adam move and his arms tightened around me and he pulled me back towards him and kissed my head. 

I giggled a little as he woke up properly.

‘Morning.’ 

‘Good morning indeed.’ He mumbled, he still seemed half asleep, he was so adorable.

I hated my brain for coming up with that dream, he wasn’t like that, I know he would never force me into anything like that until I was ready. 

Although, the kissing in the dream did turn me on. I wondered what his lips would actually feel like on mine, they looked soft. I had never kissed anyone before, I didn’t know what to do. 

Should I just kiss him or should I ask him? 

I decided to wait a bit longer. I didn’t want to make a fool of myself.

‘I think mum is making breakfast by the smell of it, if you’re hungry?’

‘Yeah I am actually. Sorry I tend to take a few minutes in the morning to gather my brain back together.’ 

I laughed and he smiled goofily. 

I decided to give him a kiss on the cheek and his smile grew even wider. I think he liked that, that it was me kissing him instead of the other way round, which it had been up till now. 

I did feel more confident around him, my dream hadn’t put me off at all. Not for now anyway, I knew it was just a dream.

He gave my cheek a gentle stroke before we both climbed of my bed and went downstairs. I went into the kitchen first and Adam followed me through. 

My mum and dad looked up.

‘Morning Tanya, ready for… Oh Adam! Hi, I didn’t realize you stayed the night.’ 

‘Morning, yeah sorry, we were playing the guitar and ended up dozing off.’ 

‘Don’t be sorry, it’s fine. You’ll stay for breakfast won’t you?’ 

‘Yes please. Smells good.’ 

We sat down at the table with dad while mum finished off the breakfast. 

‘So, you stayed over huh?’ 

Mum gave dad a smack on the shoulder. ‘James shut it.’ 

He laughed, I looked at Adam as I felt my cheeks went red from blushing. Adam just smiled and laughed aswell. 

After breakfast I got changed and Adam went back to his place to get changed aswell, he was going to come back to collect me and then we were going to go to the studio. He was meeting Theo there as they had a few things to work on. He wanted me to go aswell so I said I would. 

It would be interesting to see where they worked, Theo often said he would take me there, but he never did get round to it.

Just as I was ready there was a knock on the door. I went downstairs and it was Adam, he had been quick. I chucked on my shoes and then took his hand outside.

It wasn’t far to the studio, I would have never of guessed this was a studio looking at it from the outside. It looked like a regular building from the outside anyway.

But when you went inside and up a few stairs, the studio was amazing. There were music instruments all over the place, recording booths and everything. Looked very professional. 

‘Wow. Adam this is amazing.’

He grinned and looked really proud. 

‘Come here I want to show you something.’ He then led me over towards the piano. 

He pulled another stool over and motioned me to sit down. Which I did as he sat down next to me at the piano. 

He then started playing. It was like it just came naturally to him, the music flowed out of the piano as his fingers danced over the keys. 

I felt hypnotized, watching them. I thought back to my dream, when his hands were roaming over my body. I wondered if they would feel as good as they did in my dream. 

Curiosity for so many things took over me, but I didn’t want to take another step and then have to stop if it didn’t feel right. It wouldn’t be fair to Adam. 

The tune Adam played was familiar, I had heard it before but I couldn’t quite recognize it. I knew it was one of their songs but in honesty I hadn’t listened to them enough to recognize them all of by heart. 

But the melody was breathtaking. The emotion as he played was beautiful, I knew that music was his passion, his true love. I could see it in his eyes. 

Once he finished playing he looked at me and his face turned to worry. 

‘Sweetheart what’s wrong?’ His thumb wiped away a tear that had escaped my eye.

I hadn’t even realized I had watery eyes. I laughed a little. 

‘It was so beautiful.’ 

He smiled and placed a kiss on my forehead gently. ‘I’m glad it’s touched you so much.’ 

Then we heard the door open, we looked around to see Theo stroll in. He grinned when he seen us sat together. 

‘How are you two love birds doing?’ Adam just grinned and shook his head.

‘We’re good. You’re late!’ 

‘Oh sorry Mr always on time guy. I was busy…’ 

‘With Louise?’ 

‘You guessed it.’ Theo winked. 

I laughed. Theo then nipped through to the bathroom.

‘Adam. This is probably going to sound so stupid, but what’s love birds?’ 

We both started to laugh. 

‘Aww Tanya, it’s not stupid. Love Birds basically is love birds. But the saying like Theo meant, is that we are like two love birds. God I am so useless at explaining things.’ He laughed.

‘I kind of get it, I think.’ 

‘Look it up when you get home on the internet, that might be better information.’ 

‘I will.’ I laughed.

Theo came back through and they got to work on a new single. I got to wonder around and look at the instruments and they showed me a few things to do with the recordings. 

Then watching and listening to Theo while he recorded the vocals for the song was incredible. His voice had such power. With his voice and Adams music playing skills they were a perfect team. 

Theo left before we did, Adam just liked to brush up on one or two things first. I took the seat next to him where Theo had just sat. 

‘Thankyou for taking me here and letting me watch and help out. It’s been amazing.’

‘You’re welcome here anytime.’ 

He smiled and turned towards me on his chair. Our eyes connected, I seen his eyes then look down to my lips and back up to my eyes. I took a chance and leant forward, he got the hint and done the same. 

I felt his hand on my cheek, holding my face steady as he brought his lips to mine. I closed my eyes and then felt his soft lips gently place on mine. After a few seconds he hardened the kiss, my stomach felt like it was on fire. I had never felt anything like this before. 

He placed his other hand on my arm and stroked up and down a little, sending shivers through me at his touch. I felt him smile into our kiss. 

When we broke the kiss I felt a bit light headed and flustered. He grinned and pulled me into an embrace. 

‘Come on, let’s get going.’ 

He stood up and put his hand out for me to take which I gladly did.